Have you been enjoying the photo-a-day posts?
Yeah, I know. Kind of a cop out since I haven’t written anything real in a couple weeks. In my defense, I started my new job and it has been a whirlwind. In all honestly, I am having a pretty hard time adjusting. I went from knowing everything to knowing nearly nothing, but having a boss that thinks I already know everything. So yeah, I’ve been a little stressed, to say the least.
I went to see my life coach, E, today, and we talked about my anxiety about failure. I hate making mistakes and I hate having others judge me on those mistakes. So starting a new job is really testing me in terms of not having a nervous breakdown.
E and I did an exercise that included me making a statement, thinking about facts that confirm or disprove the statement, and then making another, more balanced statement. My original statement had to do with believing I would not be able to handle this job, because at times in the past week I have just felt like giving up, like I was never going to get it. I knew, somewhere in my head, that this wasn’t me; I’m not a quitter. But still, when it feels like everything is going wrong, it’s hard to see the right.
Anyway, some of the disproving statements really started to make me feel good about myself, and I am starting to believe having a list like this to return to, to reaffirm myself that I am going to be ok, is a good thing to have.
Some of my reaffirming statements:
– I’m smart
– I’m a problem solver
– I’m a fast learner
– I’m detail oriented
– I believe I can do anything once I am taught
– I can’t be expected to know everything on my first day/week/month
– I’m not afraid to ask questions
– I’m not afraid to let others know when I need help
– I’ve already learned so much
– My boss trusts me; so have past bosses
My “balanced” statement went something like: “It’s going to be tough, and I’m going to need help, but I have the skills and ability to succeed.”
Discussing this with E made me want to hang up this list so I could see it every day. Then I thought that might be a little too personal to display in my cube, so I decided to print some other affirmative quotes.
Here’s a picture of the space behind my computer monitor after a little decorating:
In case you can’t read them above…
I know it’s going to be hard. I know it’s going to be a challenge. I know that I am not going to be perfect. But I’m motivated and I’m hard working and, doggone, people like me.
Keep thinking those happy thoughts.